scars

my beauty has been erased
my face now a disgrace

a face so pale with lack of color
infested with pimples that came from nowhere

its all just a phase
but for me it's a scarred face

something i will have to live the rest of my life with
i just want it to go away

its taught me that beauty is more than skin deep

something i have always known but never realized

i've never been the most beautiful thing,
and when i finally got to a stage where i felt beauty both inside and out

it was taken from me in less than a year

i guess i wasn't humbled by it
but, i always thought I was

I always tried to be the best to people
i guess who i felt deserved it

but, the truth of the matter is
everyone does

and I am learning that

I can't go back and i can only go forward

I am who I am for now,
but, I will change myself for the better
I will come back with a vengeance

and I'll be better on the inside
which will reflect on the outside

I will accept who i am for the day
and grasp who I am
and make a change

this is NOT me
and I will not let it define me

if you are too ignorant to judge me by the scars on my face
than i guess i don't need your selfish insensitivity
and i pray for you that you can look away from materialistic
unrealities